Today i woke up, and for once in my life i feel as if things are falling into place. I believe i'm finding myself, and that i have to except how the things in my life finally really are. Im young, and i have my whole life ahead of me, and i cant wait to get there. It's a process. But i feel that God allows us to go through things to learn along the way. He also never allows us to go through things that we cant handle. Today is a good day. Out of all days. Tomorrow may be different but then again tomorrow is not promised to you. I want to share a little about my story. I have a problem. My problem, is where when most people are under a lot of stress, or depressed they run to a lot of different things. I run to food. It's a comfort that is never fully satisfying, and most days it lets me down. Many people suffer from drug addictions, and or alcoholic addictions, and my eating obsession is def. an addiction. Everyday, is a constant struggle. I can wake up and believe that today is going to be a new day and that i can start all over. But my mind plays with me. I walk to the fridge and tell myself that i can do it. I can eat better than scrambled eggs, bacon, toast and all the extra sides, but as soon as i open that fridge, it is so much easier to grab the leftover pizza than to make egg whites or oatmeal. See for most you may not understand that and say to your self "Thats crazy! Why would you do that?'' See this is how my mind set works. If you put a slice of pizza and a salad in front of someone who has an eating addiction. No matter how much we know we should be eating the salad because we need to lose weight, we will go for that slice of pizza, because our mind set already has embedded in it that if we eat that salad, in a hour we are going to be hungry again, its not satisfying, its going to take forever before we lose weight, whereas if you take the pizza, we think ok were already messed up, whats pizza going to do, its so good, way better than that salad, and ill never lose weight. Thats how we think. As psychotic as it is, thats the way it really is. Theres no answer to how we are. We probably don't remember how or when it all started. It just did. We struggle  everyday. We can hide it from most. People would never expect that of us. But when were behind closed doors, we eat, we binge, and everyday it sucks. I want to start my life in a better way, I want my life to be different. I can hope and try everyday, but everyday will be harder, everyday will be a struggle. I pray that God will keep giving me the serenity and the strength to get through my addiction. To handle my issues in other ways than to hurt myself. I hope for those who read this, and you know exactly what i'm talking about, maybe i can be of help to you. All i know, is that today is a new day. A day where i'm happy, a day where i miss those who i have lost. A new day that God has given me.