Enkore make up!

Hey everyone! yesterday i went to a make up confrence with a friend from school, she needed a model, and i was her model!. I met koren, and ellese for the first time and they are such noce people! It was an 80's theme party and we were pretending to be brides!. I got a whole bunch of really nice things, and i was just so happy for the experience. Koren is just so crafty, and he made a really nice brush holder set and  was able to get one! I love it! I also got some eye primers, face primers, lip colors pallets, brush sharpeners, and some great company. This was such a wonderful experience, and getting more and more into this industry, makes me hope and hold on for the future. The other day as well, i was in class and we had a guest speaker, and this woman has just gone through so much in her life, and for her to come in and be able to speak to so many different schools, and have two million dollar companies just makes me even more excited for whats to come in the future. I want to be there one day. I want the best for my future. The past week has def. been an experience and i just wanted to share it with you. If you want to see more on koren, you can go to google and type in enkore make up and it will bring you right to hs site! he has great prices on the things he sells, and he is just so nice! On Bogger, i would also refer you to Dulcecandy. She is a fashion icon and i LOVE her styles, and her personality. She is a woman who has worked to the top and you should def. check her out!

Long time no hear!

Well Hello! Its been a while! and i have just been so busy!
I recently started cosmetology school, and I have been so wrapped up in it its crazy. It's literally a job that you dont quite get paid for yet. Im sleepy lol. But its fun! Its truly has it'd days. I have been so upset a lot lately, because my grandfather recently went into the hospital, and they really dont know for what it is. Hes really upset, because he has been in there for about two days now, and he really wants to go home. I cant blame him. I saw him in there, and I have to say that reality set in. Everyone is going to die one day. Everyone!. But mentally and emotionally we dont prepare ourselves for it. We really dont. I just pray that God blesses him, and our family for some changes. I can honestly tell you, God is really trying to work ways into mine and my families lives rigth now. He def. has a bigger plkan for us than we have for ourselves, and i hope that things will get better. Tomorrow, i am gong to a make-up seminar, and im truly really excited about it. It will teach us how to do make-up and we can get lots of free stuff. Im really getting into this industry, and im excited!

Cosmetology school!

So tomorrow I start my first day of cosmetology school! I am truly hyped! That and I'm down. I feel like my weight is going to hold me down from doing all that I can do, and be all that I can be. It's hard. But I'm hoping that this will be a better start for me. A new start. I saw my brother and sister -in-law today and there two beautiful kids. It was great to see them. They have two beautiful kids, and a beautiful surrounding. In them is where I see I wanna go. And who I wanna be. They are great people, and I hope God blesses them in a great way. Well tomorrow is a new day, a first step further to my future and what it's going to be. Wish me luck!

Today i woke up, and for once in my life i feel as if things are falling into place. I believe i'm finding myself, and that i have to except how the things in my life finally really are. Im young, and i have my whole life ahead of me, and i cant wait to get there. It's a process. But i feel that God allows us to go through things to learn along the way. He also never allows us to go through things that we cant handle. Today is a good day. Out of all days. Tomorrow may be different but then again tomorrow is not promised to you. I want to share a little about my story. I have a problem. My problem, is where when most people are under a lot of stress, or depressed they run to a lot of different things. I run to food. It's a comfort that is never fully satisfying, and most days it lets me down. Many people suffer from drug addictions, and or alcoholic addictions, and my eating obsession is def. an addiction. Everyday, is a constant struggle. I can wake up and believe that today is going to be a new day and that i can start all over. But my mind plays with me. I walk to the fridge and tell myself that i can do it. I can eat better than scrambled eggs, bacon, toast and all the extra sides, but as soon as i open that fridge, it is so much easier to grab the leftover pizza than to make egg whites or oatmeal. See for most you may not understand that and say to your self "Thats crazy! Why would you do that?'' See this is how my mind set works. If you put a slice of pizza and a salad in front of someone who has an eating addiction. No matter how much we know we should be eating the salad because we need to lose weight, we will go for that slice of pizza, because our mind set already has embedded in it that if we eat that salad, in a hour we are going to be hungry again, its not satisfying, its going to take forever before we lose weight, whereas if you take the pizza, we think ok were already messed up, whats pizza going to do, its so good, way better than that salad, and ill never lose weight. Thats how we think. As psychotic as it is, thats the way it really is. Theres no answer to how we are. We probably don't remember how or when it all started. It just did. We struggle  everyday. We can hide it from most. People would never expect that of us. But when were behind closed doors, we eat, we binge, and everyday it sucks. I want to start my life in a better way, I want my life to be different. I can hope and try everyday, but everyday will be harder, everyday will be a struggle. I pray that God will keep giving me the serenity and the strength to get through my addiction. To handle my issues in other ways than to hurt myself. I hope for those who read this, and you know exactly what i'm talking about, maybe i can be of help to you. All i know, is that today is a new day. A day where i'm happy, a day where i miss those who i have lost. A new day that God has given me.

Olivia.

Well hello!
My name is olivia Cruz. I origionally wanted to make my Blogger, because i feel that this is a good way to vent how i feel, what im about and my accomplishments. I am 20 years of age, and i just recently graduated high school on June9th, 2011. I was a little behind, but i made it and about to continue the next chapter of my life. I will be going to school starting June 28th of this year to be a cosmetologist. I love everything about cosmetology. I love making people and myself look beautiful. I figured i would go for cosmetology because i want girls to feel powerful, ellegant, and that there worth something. I am a plus size woman and growing up in a world full of thin beautiful woman is very hard. For those who may read this and you are plus sized, you know what i mean. Shopping is crushal, and it just reminds you of the things you cant have and what you are not. I want to make this blog to help girls like me feel better about themselves, where they can shop, and tips to make themselves feel better. This is a process for everyone, including me. I just want to help, and maybee this can all help me. So today this is the first day of my blog,and hopefully this goes well. Thanks for reading! =)